Feeling

I feel something inside me

Screaming, crying

Flipping through blank pages

I think I’ve finally done it

I think I’ve finally given in

I think I’m finally broken

I’m trembling from within

When the reality sets in, there’s no turning back

I’m not going to admit it yet

Not to myself

Not to anyone else

There’s something there

Something inside me

Something finally stopped

Finally gave in

I have given in

I have lost this battle

And now there’s no turning back